Staring blankly at the ceiling of my room at 2 am, asking how did we end up this way. Stream of tears flowed down under my eyes as I started to remember the day you said goodbye. Everything seem so perfect between us, that's what I thought. Not until the day I noticed you turned cold and started ignoring our supposed to be late night calls. I kept mum about your cold treatment and tried to understand you like the way you understand me when I have bad days.

I tried reaching you out. Whenever we bumped into each other at school and was about to say Hi, you're always going to different direction. Why? I've messaged you a thousand times , but all I ever received was a blank space. Why? My friends said that I should give you time to think maybe because you're going through something. But what about me? Did you ever think of me? What I was going through? What I'm going to feel?

There were many questions left unanswered. 

Not until the day I saw you with another girl. You were so happy. Both lost in your own world. And here I am, picking up the broken pieces of my heart. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to feel. My world stop for awhile processing the things I've seen. You saw me. You know that. But instead of explaining things, you just ignored me and went on with the girl you chose over me. 

The four corners of my room has been the witnessed of those sleepless nights. I've kept it all inside. I've managed to smile though I'm breaking inside every time I remember that day. All I could do is cry, wondering why. Was I not enough to you?  

I have moved on with my life. Every thing is going back to where it is supposed to be. And you came back. "I'm sorry" was the first two  words you said. You were crying so hard. Why now? Why did you even came back when I'm already whole again? Every thing between us ended the day you broke my heart big time. I can not love you anymore. I can not trust you any more.

But I have loved you. Our memories together will never be forgotten. I have forgiven you.

 Maybe we're not really meant for this lifetime. 

xx

Kennard